Happy Thursday all!
I’ve been thinking a lot about a topic and having been debating whether I want to talk about it on here or not, because it’s something I’m a tad embarrassed about. Since whenever I share any of my personal struggles, you all have great insight, so I figured why not?
As you know, from July 2012-May 2013, I lived with the sweetest golden doodle in the universe, Charlie. Charlie was not only my best bud, but also my fitness pal and motivator. We walked twice per day, anywhere from 3-5 miles per day. He kept my active and made me workout everyday, regardless of whether I wanted to or not (not=think middle of Wisconsin winter, -10 degrees, in icy and snowy conditions. Yup, we walked every day!).
One of the perks of this is that while I was eating healthy, I didn’t really have to worry or focus about restricting what I was eating, because for the most part, I was either maintaining or slowly losing weight.
Since Charlie has gone back to live with his family and I’m on my own, this has changed. This summer, even though I have been running and working out, I’ve gained just around 10 lbs. I think it’s because although I’m eating about the same as I have been, I’m not exercising as much or as regularly as I had been.
I’ve been slowly trying to adjust my eating habits to better match my activity level. This has become even more important as I’ve had to cut out running to help my body recover from its injuries. However, I haven’t been super successful in my attempt.
My biggest struggle is my attempt to cut back on eating sugar. I have a sweet tooth. I am a self-proclaimed chocolate lover and if possible, could survive off of eating only sweets for the rest of my life. I love to indulge. A treat now and then is ok, but this summer, it has gotten a tad out of control.
Tuesday’s dessert, after eating a cake pop, dark chocolate, and a peanut butter pretzel treat earlier in the day. Sugar overload.
So I’ve reached a point where I’m ready to make a change; the thing is I don’t know how. I don’t believe in dieting. I’m planning to write more about this later, but my experience with dieting has been quite negative. It starts as a restrictive phase that leads to binging and ultimately, weight gain instead of loss.
I’ve thought about using My Fitness Pal to keep a better eye on the foods that I’m putting in my body. The issue with this is I tend to get obsessive about calorie counting and restrict myself until I binge.
As you can see, I have a bit of a vicious cycle when it comes to diet like behaviors, which is why I am so hesitant about how to approach my eating habits. I want to make changes in a healthy way. I don’t want to restrict myself, because I know that leads to binging. Honestly, it’s been a long time since I’ve truly tried to change my eating habits that I’m proceeding cautiously.
I’m debating trying to food journal, but not include calorie counts. I had started to do this with Jessi, but stopped. I’m wondering if just seeing what I eat will help me make better decisions? But again, I worry that this will lead to negative behaviors and possible feelings of guilt.
I guess what I’m trying to share is that even “healthy living bloggers” struggle with things like weight gain and how to keep up healthy living habits. I am far from perfect (which I’m sure you know) and for a long time, I took my built in exercise with Charlie for granted. I’m now working to exercise (especially including strength training) on a more regular basis and to start to make better choices with eating.
It has been a long, hard road to not only lose weight, but also to keep it off over the past two years. I talked about my rock bottom last week and absolutely do not want to go back to that place. I’m hoping that opening up and sharing where I am with all of you will help me take the step forward I need to get back on track.
- Have you ever tried to cut down on a particular food group? What did you find helpful?
- If you blog, do you find it difficult to live up to the healthy living blogger image?